Reimagining Reality

Our Journey from the USA to Germany


We are finally making some progress on our journey to Germany.  It has been a frustrating and long process but we’ve got our Phase 2 application for Greater Europe Mission done and turned in.  Now the long wait.  There is little to be done on our end and much for them to do on their end and all we can do is wait.  We want to go and they want us to come, but as anyone who has gone through this process, there are just so many little ducks that have to be in a row for it all to work.  So now we wait and hope that all our ducks are in a row and we can be officially invited to one of the training weeks in the near future.

It has been frustrating, this process.  I feel like Tantalus, ever thirsty with water receding just as I get close to it.  Every time we feel like we’re finally going to get to go, something happens and we’re two steps back again.  It’s a story I’ve heard from so many of the missionaries I’ve talked to who are in the field now.  As frustrating as it is, I can see the logic in this process.  Moving overseas is like getting married or having kids, you’re never really prepared, no matter how much you try.  But God in His infinite wisdom seems to have a method that gets a person as ready as possible.  See the strangest thing happened every time we thought we were going, I prepared our home, our things, and we both prepared our mindset and attitude.  Each time, we had the progress of the last time to build on.  Each time we thought we were truly prepared.  Of course we weren’t and I’m beginning to understand that we will never be prepared, but just as when we got married, onward we go anyway.  My only prayer is that this time will finally be our time to make it all the way.



When I was picking our colleges, I didn’t think things out of my control would prevent me from graduating.  When I left for college it never occurred to me that I wouldn’t be moving to California four years later.  When I first set foot on my college campus, I had no clue I’d be married 2 years and 10 months later.  When I signed up for my beginning German language class, it never crossed my mind I would be preparing to move to Germany.  When I left my childhood home in Phoenix, Arizona and drove the 2,000+ miles to college in Wilmore, Kentucky, I was going to major in Media and I was destined to be the first woman to win a directing Oscar and I was going to be an independent woman who finished college, gained my own personal success and then, if I found the right guy would probably get married and start a family.  I was NOT going to do “Christian Media.”  I was NOT going to be a missionary.  I was NOT going to some crazy hot country with bugs and snakes and no air conditioning or running water.  I had my 5 year plan in place and I was not going to be moved from it!

Sometimes I look back on that girl leaving home for the first time and I laugh to myself.  “Girl,” I would say to her, “You have no clue what you’re getting yourself into.”  I would tell her how time and experience would change her idea of what she wanted out of life.  I would tell her how a quiet life ended up looking far more desirable than the non-stop, on-the-go world she thought she wanted, or how being a stay at home mom would end up being a goal instead of a prison sentence.  How “bigger is better” would turn into “less is more.”  Yes, she really had no clue what was coming and sometimes I wonder what she would say if she knew then what I know now.

Well here I am today.  It’s been 7 years since I was that girl and I am so glad I’m not still her.  Because my husband Richard and I have taken our first steps in a long process towards becoming missionaries to Germany and I couldn’t be more excited!  We are currently in the application process with Greater Europe Mission or GEM.  They even have a media company, Gemstone Media!  I feel like God has spent the last 10 years of my life preparing me for this, even back when I put my foot down and firmly said “NO!”  Now I’m wishing we could leave tomorrow.  We are both very excited to see where this process takes us and we are looking forward to all the new experiences we will have and friends we are going to meet, but most of all for the lives we will have the opportunity to change for the better.  These days I don’t have so much a 5 year plan as a day to day plan and I might not have a clue what’s in store, but I can’t wait to find out!!